I grew up with many rules.  Wake up early.  Go to bed early.  Study.  I spent my youth following the rules, studying them, and learning how to use them.  After the Shang came, I chose to use the rules to my advantage.  And to the advantage of many others.  I used the resources of my family, I used the rules, and I did something that nobody in my family had ever done in living memory.  They hate me for that.  I am at peace with my decision.