Jack

by on January 9, 2022 at 12:01 am
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It was three short years that changed a life. We sang, we played, and we danced. We made beautiful music together in Northern Minnesota. We made Heaven on Earth, and that was all I wanted for the rest of my life. They wanted to be bigger. They wanted to go to Nashville and go worlds wide. I knew they were good enough to do it, so I let them go. I thought they would get a taste of it, make a name for themselves, and then come back home to make more beautiful music together. They thought I would follow them and we would be together out there. We were all wrong.

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Jack

by on January 8, 2022 at 12:01 am
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I tell people that I am happy with my life. I am. I tell people that I wouldn’t change anything. I tell myself the same thing. But that is a lie. It took me a long time to come to terms with that. It took a long time for me to face that fact and accept it. It took a long time for me to admit the truth to myself. And to them. I let them go. The best things in my life, the best girls in all the worlds, and I let them go alone. That is my one true regret in life. I would go back and change it if I could. I have no idea what I would be now if I did. Maybe I would be dead, along with everybody I cared about. But I would have spent my life with the girls I loved more than life itself. And that would have been a life worth living.

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Jack

by on January 7, 2022 at 12:01 am
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She changed my life the day she entered it. Long blonde hair, bright blue eyes, and a penchant for yellow sundresses that blew my mind. She was a true Scandinavian beauty. Then there was her cousin. Long brunette locks, dark brown eyes that could melt a soul, and what she did to blue jeans should have been against the law. And they could play guitars better than I could. Now I was no slouch back then. I was The Guy. I played at all the beach parties, because I was just that good. Then they joined me and the music got so much better. We were totally in sync, body, mind, and soul. We made Heaven on Earth and I never wanted anything else but that.

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January 6th

by on January 6, 2022 at 12:01 am
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I remember hundreds of thousands of people protesting election fraud last January 6th. They listened to President Trump’s speech telling them to be peaceful, and then started the hour-long march to the capitol. But Bad Actors had already come to the capitol prepared to do violence. They attacked the police during his speech, and managed to break into the capitol. Some of the crowd followed them in. Others were invited into the capitol when the police opened the doors and ushered them in. In part of the capitol, people were violently beating on doors, in another part they were calmly walking between rope lines and taking pictures, and elsewhere weird buffalo shaman dudes marched with TV camera crews recording every moment. Most of the crowd outside had no idea anything odd was going on. While protestors were dying not far away. It was a truly surreal day.

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Jack

by on January 5, 2022 at 12:01 am
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My parents did everything they could to raise me right. God knows they tried, but I was awful full of myself. I thought I was God’s gift to girls, and the best boy around. I was all that, and I was certain of it all. I was two hundred pounds of testosterone in a one hundred pound body, and I could bench press that truck over there if you asked me to prove it all. Then I met her. I’d say she was the girl of my dreams but she blew my dreams out of the water. I fell in love with her, the way only someone fifteen going on eighteen can fall. Hopelessly and completely. With all my heart and soul. And then I met her cousin.

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