Jack of Harts

Yesterday’s post ended darker than I meant it to, talking about being on a road unwished. I know life and death come and go and all that jazz, but that does not mean I have to enjoy every step of it. Dad moved out and left mom in debt back before I entered High School, and its been me and mom against the world ever since. She started her new life with a literal negative net worth, and built herself up to owning a house of her own. I followed her example, and then bought her house and paid off the loans that remained on it, so she would never have another house payment in her life. Then she died. And now I am alone in a house that has never been empty. I do not like that. That’s why I am working to convert it into a gaming area for my friends to come to. And why I am demoing games again. Too much alone time is a road unwished that I will not follow. The road of life goes ever on, and now I search for a better fork to walk. That is both the dark and the light of it.