Jack of Harts

I was on narcotics for a month many years ago. Some guy pulled in front of my motorcycle and I broke five ribs. I was wearing a helmet and leather jacket so I didn’t become road pizza, but I still broke five ribs and that is painful. So my doctors prescribed me narcotics for the pain. The first result was that I could not drive for a month. The result I didn’t notice at the time was that I lost the ability to concentrate on anything for more than a few minutes. Long form writing was impossible. I couldn’t hold a thought together for that.

The really weird thing happened at the end. I’d been working to get myself off them by not taking them over the weekends. But I still needed them when I went to work. And as the workweeks went on, I needed them more than I did earlier in the week. By the time the last Friday came along, I was basically mainlining all my painkillers on the dotted line for recommended times and doses. And I was still looking for more relief. I still hurt. But my narcotics had this little line in the prescription. If taking 1 is not enough, take 2.

So on that last Friday morning, as the pain was not going away, I took 2. I remember the cloud descending. The cloud is a common way it is described by people who get off narcotics again. It’s this thing that slips between you and the world. I described it as being one step removed from the world and looking in. I told my mom what it felt like, and she said that she didn’t want me taking them anymore. I said neither do I.

And so I didn’t take them that weekend. And that hard pain never came back, so I didn’t take them again. And in a few days, I started to be able to think again. To hold long-term thoughts. To be able to write. I value my ability to think too much to ever want to go on them again. Because I really wasn’t myself while on them. And that is another thing people who have gotten off narcotics say. Narcotics change how we think. Make us something else than we really are. Beware of them.

Does this sound like a success or a failure? Say your team does something. After you do the thing, the people in charge get promotions and the people they were in charge of get from a week to a month worth of suspensions. Would you say that the people in charge succeeded at something while the others failed at something? Or would the whole project be considered a success or failure? Maybe it succeeded partially, but not all the way? Maybe it succeeded but some people didn’t like it? What do you think?

Now that you’ve thought about it, consider this. This is exactly what happened to the Secret Service agents who were guarding Trump the day he and multiple others were shot at Butler. And a firefighter was killed. So… was that day a success or a failure according to those in charge? To know that, we need to know what they were supposed to do. So… what were they supposed to do? Why did the people in charge get promotions? Why did the others get slaps on the wrists?

Was it a success, a failure, or something else?

Epstein Didn’t Kill Himself has been a meme since the day he didn’t kill himself. Based on all the information we had, we knew he was an intelligence asset of someone who arranged for underage girls to be transported for the sexual gratification of both himself and others. All of this information came from Department of Justice documents or people. We knew all this.

The Right has been calling to release the Epstein List for years, because we wanted to know who was dicking around with little kids. The Left has been largely yawning at the whole affair. The Right knows the Left’s best allies dick around with little kids so it made sense to us on the Right that they didn’t follow it. Now the Department of Justice tells us through a leaked memo that there is nothing to see here. Move along. Move along. And the Trump administration is trying to walk away from the whole thing.

Which leaves all of us wondering what the heck is going on. Is the information that came out before a lie? Or is this new information a lie? Is the real truth some combination of it all? We don’t know, and that is causing everybody to get pissy. Either there’s no evidence of anything, or there is. Which is it? Was Epstein just a pedo with no coconspirators? If so, what about the court filings saying he was? Was Epstein an intelligence asset? And if so, who did he belong to? And is there a ring of pedos linked to Epstein that is being covered up right now?

All the information we had before, based on court filings and named sources, suggests there is. Why does this new information say otherwise? There’s too much conflicting information right now, and I don’t think the Right is going to just shut up and take it, just because the government is doing its best to say there is no story and move along. The Right doesn’t move along very well after they’ve sunk their teeth into something.