I think I may have been overly optimistic when I noted earlier that it felt like my mind was working again. No bones about it, I’m doing better. The kuff is gone and almost everything that goes with it. But my brain still feels cloudy. Like I’m five hours past bedtime and asking for just one more show before I crash. It’s a good show, but I’m having trouble seeing the TV because my body really just wants to sleep some more. I’ve only had one dose of the quils in the last 24 hours though, so that is good. The quicker I can get off them the better. They are good friends for a day or so, but they overstay their welcome pretty quick if you let them. Better to see them out sooner rather than later.
I developed a bit of a kuff while I was away. Not certain if it was just general exhaustion combined with a lack of the daily vitamins I usually take but left at home, or if I ran into somebody with a bug my body wasn’t ready for. Whatever the case, I got home feeling tired but good. Then woke up to go to work and realized I couldn’t breathe right. Long story short, a couple days later of going back and forth between nyquil and dayquil to sleep and work, along with a liberal use of my asthma inhalers to keep my lungs working, and I have a new respect for the quils. Those things can be truly mind altering. I haven’t taken anything in 12 hours and only now really feel like I have a working mind again. And I never went over the recommended usage of anything.
The Fall of Minneapolis is a documentary about what went down in Minneapolis in 2020 and 2021. Much of what is in it I already know because this is my backyard. I live an hour away from Minneapolis and locals picked up a lot of information back in the day. Stuff that was public but not broadcast. And this has some stuff that was held back even from the locals. It is an interesting and illuminating documentary, told by people who lived there at the time, and who saw it all in real time. It uses police cameras, police radio traffic, official public statements, and the official police training manual, to shed light on what they saw at the time. It is a good documentary. I highly recommend everybody see it.
Humanity has a long tradition of being cruel to fellow humans. Sometimes it is because we don’t care about our fellow man. Sometimes it is because we care too much. The last few weeks have proven that some of us care far too much. Some of us hate too much. If you ever read about the history of the 1930s and wondered what it must have felt like to live then, look at now. Right now. What is happening right now leads to what happened then. To people rounded up, packed into cattle cars, and placed in camps, with their property given to political friends. To undesirables sent to the gas chambers. What is happening right now leads to that. We can still stop it. We still have time. But the time runs short.
I am home now. The place I’ve hung my hat up in for the last 30 years. Literally the exact house. I lived in more houses than I can remember the first 16 years of my life. I went to 13 schools. Kennedy in Hays was the one school I went to for 3 years. Every other school was at best a year at a time. I went to 3 schools in second grade. So when me and Mom put down roots, we sunk them deep. It is good to be home and sleeping in my own bed. And getting ready to go back to my own job. It is good.